So dear blog-readers. Here's the story. I went to a stake dance the
other day, and it was MUCH better than expected. I had been having
such great confidence in myself without getting a big head, and I feel
like it has been a noticeable difference. I have friends from
Hurricane point out directly that "you've become a lot more outgoing.
It's awesome." Anyway, at the dance I had NO inhibitions. I let it all
hang out, and I had a great time, just as I expected. Here's where
things get interesting. I don't know of any of you have heard "I’m
your daddy" by Weezer, but the beginning of the song is exactly what
happened. "I though tonight would start like every other night. I’d
party with my friends. But when I saw you cruising down the dance
floor, normal came to an end." I saw this girl, and some memory came
back from when I went to school in hurricane. This girl had always
stood out in my eye. I never learned her name, I just noticed this
girl all the time. She was there at the dance, dancing with her friend
(who happened to be my good friends Ex) and I was frozen for a moment.
I asked her to dance, I learned her name, it was fun, I asked her to
Dance later in the night as well. It was great. After the first dance
I learn that my good friend's friend liked her. So I figure I'll play
wingman and tell the girl's best friend about that, because that's the
smart thing to do. A girl is way more likely to think positively of a
guy if her best friend approves. So I go on with that plan, and
somehow she ends up asking me if /I/ liked her. I tell her "err...
Yeah... She's insanely attractive." I go home from the dance (In which
I rocked.) and my friend asks me if I'm going to pursue this girl. I
tell him I don't know. I go to Tuacahn, and it'd be a little difficult
for me. He agrees and then tells me that friend's friend has some
serious competition anyway. I laugh it off. The next day I log onto
facebook in the morning because I leave it open while I'm playing
vidya gaems, and I see that the girl had requested me as a friend on
facebook! This was my face when I saw that.
I had barely talked to the girl, and that really made me happy. I’m
pretty sure that she did so because Best Friend had told her what I
thought of her. My friend told me that his friend would have a hard
time if I decided to pursue this girl. I didn't believe him, really. I
had zero confidence when it came to girls because I had This Mindset. Things are definitely changing. I have acquired a
nice confidence that I feel I can keep from expanding my head, and I
have pretty much lost my inhibitions. I need to thank Mike, Caleb, and
Reece here, on that part. I really owe a lot more than I can say to
hose guys. But I'm still way new on interacting with girls, and that
mindset sticks. I'm having trouble deciding if I should talk to her
over facebook, or something. Facebook conversing is a big thing for
me, for some irrational reason. I'm afraid of it. I'm scared, and I
know I shouldn’t be. I'm way shy, but that's mostly changed, despite
old habits dying hard. I just overthink everything, that's my
problem. I just have a fear of... Rejection? I don't know. I don’t
know what to do, haha. Help? I just need to hear my two inspirational
words and I'll be good to go. MAN UP. Thanks for listening.
